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Carla’s Niche

Carla’s Letter Tapes

CAVEAT: Warning! These letters have not been edited by Carla. Expect errors.

Letter to W

August 2, 1990

Dear W,

Assuming your nickname, as most W’s are, I’ll call you B, and introduce myself as Carla Rueckert. I am a member of the L/L Research Group, which produced the Law of One books.

I had not seen this at the beginning of the week because Jim works the mail in order to get all the things out that people have ordered and unless something is addressed directly to me or is basically just a letter which involves channeling or Christianity, both of which Jim considers himself to be not as good a speaker as I, Jim answers letters as well. However, he didn’t answer this particular letter—he probably didn’t see it, so I’ll just give you the general gist of my reactions to your questions about “Can you help me with techniques to break through the forgetting.”

The first thing that you need to do as a spiritual seeker is to become serene and calm and not feel that there is a deadline or an unseemly emergency or anything lacking as far as having time enough to do what we need to do and to do what we came here to do. And I don’t think it’s only wanderers that have things in mind when they incarnate, I think pretty much everybody here at this time has a capacity to help arrange his own life, having become sufficiently aware to realize what biases need strengthening and what learnings need to be emphasized for this particular personality and soul.

Now what isn’t told to people and what is the darndest thing to learn, is that our service is to live. Here we are in the Valley of Death, a Marine boot camp, or something like that, life is in there somewhere with that sort of experience, sometimes anyway. We make choice after choice—sometimes we choose the lesser of two evils and that pains us because we would like to live an ideal life and find it impossible to do in this relativistic world. We want to heal and we end up supporting our children or staying home with them when they have a cold, or whatever we’re doing, which does not seem to be a service to the Infinite One.

Our main job, if you are a wanderer, and if you think you are you probably are, is to be. It’s the hardest thing you’ll ever try to do. Is to be. To be is to be transparent—is to be hollowed out—is to be an impersonal self whose will is only to serve the Creator. The work that you do upon yourself when you are changing diapers, channeling, sweeping the floor, healing, it doesn’t matter. It’s the intensity and the certainty with which you love and wish to serve.

To live a life in faith you do not have to become famous, or rich, or successful as the world knows it. We are not dealing with the consensus reality illusion we call the world.

We’re dealing when it comes to doing what we’re supposed to do in this life, with a life that stretches beyond this one and before it—you were here, you have been here, you will be here in the Creation. It does not take any loss of forgetting to realize, if you can believe this, if you can have the faith to believe this, is that the situation that is directly in front of your eyes at this time is your path of service at this time. There’s no difference between grand paths of service and seemingly humble paths of service.

I suggest that you read Brother Lawrence, it’s not a hard read. He wrote about 15 pages altogether in his whole life. But if you can find Brother Lawrence’s writings somewhere he expresses it beautifully. “To pick up a straw for the love of the Lord”, he says, “is a divine action.” That’s the spirit of it, basically. To spend your time in praise and thanksgiving and in weaving of your life a tapestry of love for the infinite one, and an attitude of willingness to help in whatever situation comes your way.

We weren’t all given dramatic ministries. The ones of us who are given dramatic ministries often choose to make them as undramatic as possible. I do that in two ways.

First of all, I don’t charge. That’s directly against American Psychology. People figure if they don’t have to pay for it, they don’t have to listen to it. That protects the material as far as I’m concerned. It’s a real luxury to do that and I turn my face away from becoming better known (so far I have at least) when authors have come to me and said “I’d like to include you in this book.” I’ve said: “I’m really thankful and feel really humble to have this honor, but I don’t see how we could get our work done if we weren’t real obscure and unknown and pretty much left to ourselves to be hermits. And authors look at you in a most peculiar way when they hear that but this is what I see my path being—not being a Shirley McClain type medium.

I have absolutely no intention of telling anybody through my channel what color dress they should wear tomorrow or should they get on this plane, or what the lottery numbers are or any of that silly stuff. That just doesn’t work for me, so I have a very small audience compared to someone like Shirley McClain or those who seem to be giving psychic readings but are basically fortune telling and believe me, if I wanted to, I could do the same thing, I just don’t see the value to the student of it. It’s sort of like learning for the student.

I would prefer to help each person with whom I come in contact to grow into his own self, his own flower, his own view. I don’t need a bunch of little Carla clones running around, so I can’t really help you with techniques to break through your forgetting because I don’t think it’s necessary.

I think meditation, successful or not as far as you’re concerned subjectively, will take you where you want to go. Will keep you at a place where during the day you can call back that center that you have found in meditation—that moment of quiet—that feeling of peace, that taste of eternity that you receive in meditation sometimes. And when you bring it back into what you’re doing, you’ve change the situation immeasurably by the simple changing of your own frame of mine.

You do the work—you do the learning—do it from inside out because you already know the answers. I would be a fool to tell you one way over another about how to meditate because each person has his own way. And if you don’t’ have one yet then I suggest that you start out with the basics: sit with your spine fairly erect—get comfortable and make sure nothing is binding you at the waist or at the crotch, those places that kind of hang up, try to get comfortable where you can relax, but stay alert and listen. Just listen. Close you eyes, follow your breath in, out, in, out.

It’s amazing how dependable it is that you will breath—no question about it—this will work—you can pay attention to this for the rest of your life—it’s not going to break down—you will breath, so if you just keep following your breath, and following your breath, and following your breath, and every time a thought comes in, watch it come in and watch it go away with the feeling of blessing and acceptance of yourself for thinking that thought. Don’t ever give yourself a hard time. Life’s too short. If you’re going to learn about love you don’t learn love by putting anybody down—most of all yourself.

So be persistent in meditation. Realize that to love anyone else, you must love yourself. Because the commandment was to “Love the Lord, your God, and love your neighbor as yourself.” A lot of people need to love themselves first. If your self-esteem has had a few whacks in the past, get yourself clear. Forgive, forget, look at it with a long enough view to see the folly of it. Whatever it was, whatever it is that is blocking you from feeling good about yourself—they were wrong (laughs).

Maybe they were right in one way, but in another way—your deeper self—is a good person, if you choose to make it so. If you so choose. All of these things are your choice. You are free. But when you surrender that freedom to the service of the one infinite Creator, then you are perfectly free. And to do that, you don’t need to know anything beyond the veil.

All you have to do is have faith. Not in one god or another, not in one Christ or another, but simply in the basics to have faith that you are loved by the Creator that created you—that the natural response of a child is to love his father and his mother, to turn to them for help, to know that help is always available, which it is. And to spend as much time with the books as possible. They may be cosmic, but they’re your parents. It’s as simple as that.

Good luck and drop me a line if you have any other questions.

God Bless,

Love and Light,


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